Birth of Tapoo - A short Story
At the beginning of the beginning and the beginning of it all, was Tapoo and the great nothingness, And Tapoo was destined to swallow the great nothingness just as the great nothingness contained it.
Its shiny eyes were always filled with curiosity as it looked in to the void. It observed it and was at peace with it just like as it was a part of it, as it was one with it.
Tapoo didn’t know who it was, and how it came to be, and had only just developed the concept of ‘I’ thought, “like how the void is to me, will it be the same for ‘Not I’?” this thought took several eons to form, though for him it was only a moment, Tapoo developed the concept of ‘Not I’.
Tapoo wondered how this ‘Not I’ could be, or if this ‘Not I’ was like it. Tapoo had developed the concepts of similar and different. Tapoo learned and labeled more such and different concepts, then it got the inspiration to develop the concept of ‘hide’ or to develop the concept of ‘seek’.
Tapoo, yet too innocent to understand the causality of things, had made its first ever decision.
Tapoo had developed the concept of ‘Seek’. With ‘seek’, it learned the concepts of directions. It now knew about up, it got to know about down. It could differentiate both sides and front and behind. it looked around to find ‘Not I’, without knowing anything about it. And for the first time in countless years of its existence, it had moved. Though it looked like it did not, Tapoo knew that it did move, it knew that it did progress in its ‘seek’ in the vast space of nothingness. It tried to hear ‘Not I’ but their was no sound, it tried to look for ‘Not I’ but it looked the same everywhere, it tried to feel ‘Not I’ as it~~’~~s body flailed, but nothing worked. ‘It was not very good at seeking’, it concluded.
Soon Tapoo realized the concept of ‘alone’. It felt its first emotion, which was ‘sadness’. It yearned for change. Tapoo cried for the first time in its existence. It cried, shed tears and it ran for eons, all alone without anyone there or in view to console it. While crying, Tapoo had learned various other concepts, such as hate, destruction, and apathy.
Tapoo had begun to show indifference to its empty surroundings, the shine it its eyes nowhere to seen and the curiosity only made it suffer more, it stopped comprehending any more concepts, and soon Tapoo had started to hate that it was a part of this nothingness. After its self torture and hatred for the world became unbearable, Tapoo destructed itself, leaving the nothingness with nothing but with its remains being thrown about in all directions, filling the void which killed it.
Tapoo had understood the concept of ‘hide’, while not knowing why it did it over seek and not knowing that it had made a choice-a concept it will learn much later-it continued with its life. It didn’t know about itself, or ‘not I’ but it hid, not knowing what it was hiding from and where it was and how to really hide, Tapoo closed its eyes like an infant thinking closing its eyes will make him disappear from the world’s view just like how the world disappears from its, too young to understand that it was visible to everyone. Incapable of considering that ‘Not I’ might not seek it or there might be no ‘not I’ to seek it. Tapoo waited for ‘Not I’ to find it and developed more such and different concepts.
Now, Tapoo didn’t understand the concept of time, for it the longest of times of human histories would pass in a moment. Tapoo waited for ‘Not I’ to come and find it, it waited an eon and then it waited an eon again, it waited multiple such eons, but ‘not I’ could never find it. Tapoo was very good at hiding.
Tapoo opened its eyes after what to it felt like a moment. Tapoo’s wait had led to the learning of another concept. This time the concept it learned was ‘creation’.
This time, Tapoo decided to create a ‘noise’, so that ‘Not I’ would hear that Tapoo was hiding there. Tapoo created a ‘glow’ so that ‘not I’ could see that Tapoo was hiding there. Tapoo created substance so ‘Not I’ could feel that Tapoo was hiding there. Tapoo created patterns so ‘Not I’ would come and find Tapoo, trying to fill the void, Tapoo made rhythms, Tapoo made beautiful visuals, Tapoo made…
An emotion called disappointment, Tapoo felt something for the first time, but it was conflicted. It had started liking the things it was doing, it was happy. While waiting for ‘Not I’ to find it, Tapoo had fallen in love with creating. Tapoo hid again, this time hiding so that ‘Not I’ would not be able to find it while it enjoyed creating on its ever-expanding canvas.
While the Tapoo was crying, it stopped and and for the first time it turned back, to go to the place where it had always been, in hopes of finding the comfort it always had. When It felt a sensation, the sensation of something touching it. Tapoo in its life of several eons had never felt like this, this sensation of something not part of its body connecting to it. This sensation was new, it opened it’s dejected eyes to find out what it was, curious, but only a little, once again after many years to learn, he found the nothingness filled with glittering tears, the tears which looked like twinkling stars. The void and empty world of Tapoo was now not as void.
Tapoo had learned a new concept, it was ‘Hope’. Hope for that there might not be anyone else in this world with it but it could fill the void in his heart which lamented for connections just like how the empty void world was filled and decorated with Tapoo’s tears.
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